Oh hey, TMI post.

30.1.13

So, my blogging has become less and less frequent, despite the millions of times I've said I'm going to make a real effort to post more. I guess it's felt like I've been so busy. And I have! I still don't quite understand how some bloggers seem to find the time to go to university and blog every week. But it's not the whole story. Part of it is having a lot to do, part of it is lack of organisation, part of it is lack of motivation, part of it is feeling like I never have anything interesting to tell you guys haha. And over the past few weeks I have been going through some pretty dark times.

I guess I'm learning some valuable lessons about myself, my life, my attitudes to other people, and my future (prepare yourself for this! haha). Here are three of them!

  1. Never, ever, lose sight of your dreams and who you really are. That sounds so cheesy but I am telling you now do not dismiss it. Because it is crucial. Not that you know me, but I do not really talk about this kind of thing... so yeah, I'm really being serious haha. Dismissing these things has been a genuinely huge mistake of mine. Never get too comfortable in any situation. Things change and you have to be prepared for that. Even if you aren't prepared for it, no matter what, you have to make sure that at the end of the day, YOU are there for you. YOU should be the most important thing in your life. If you are not, or you feel like you are putting other people first, you are leaving yourself totally vulnerable.
  2. The above applies to all of your relationships. I felt that I already 'knew' this in terms of people I didn't care about that much, but all the while I had completely taken for granted my relationships with people closer to me. I've spent the past few months trying to be someone I'm not, thinking I will have a better life and I will have better relationships. No! Mistake! It does not work! Never try to be anyone other than you. Never alter your personality for the sake of keeping someone around. Because any relationship produced from that is just not real. All that happens is that you come out of it realising that you never even knew each other. Just be 100% yourself, because if you have to suppress any part of your amazing self for someone, that person is probably not as amazing as you are haha
  3. Thinking you need to be different is really just down to you feeling dissatisfied with yourself in other ways. This is a problem I definitely have. If I feel bad about myself, I will sometimes try to make myself feel better in ways that do not do anything to address the actual problem e.g. seeking the approval of others, trying to maintain a relationship that you know is not ultimately what you want. But at the end of the day, you will never be happy unless you reach your own standards.

But anyway, above all, everything has just reminded me of how awesome I am. SO, I'm celebrating. On this blog. Even if it's not very good, even if I update like once a month, it's my creation. I'm fond of it. Yay!

If anyone wants to talk, email me. I'm in the mood for talking nowadays haha.

Here are some photos! 

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Sry this is very instagrammy. I cut my hair! I had actually been vaguely considering it for ages and it only ended up happening when I spontaneously decided to cut off my split ends and it ended up like this. Tears were shed. But then I realised it looked better with hats and I got over it. YEAH! Apparently 'long bobs' are trendy nowadays anyway... so maybe I just got cooler. 

We went to Leeds last weekend to stay with my Aunt and Uncle. They lived in a really beautiful area, I'm sad I didn't get more pictures! Anyway, it was just nice to see family and be in a real house in a real city.

Leeds has so many pretty shopping arcades. SO nice. They remind me of the QVB, only better looking haha.

They also have American Apparel hoho. Not sure why Newcastle doesn't have one but there you go.

We didn't just window shop though. We also went to the wonderful museum. I didn't take that many pictures haha, but when you're in a museum you just want to look around. We didn't get to go to the Art Gallery in the end but... I can at least tell you the building looks amazing.

Haha the children in the background. MY OUTFIT on one of the days. Jacket from Vivilli.com!

And finally, communal reading glasses in The Reliance. Nice idea.

So, anyway. I'm back at uni. Applying for work schemes and things. Trying to get things done. Going on a trip to Middlesborough next Saturday haha! No idea what that will be like, but still. Nice to get out of Durham. 

I hope you're all well. I've been terrible with replying to emails recently but actually I do really appreciate it haha, so feel free. I will endeavour to reply to everything. Another thing I have learned: be there for people. If you suspect someone is sad, spend time with them. They will appreciate it, even if they are not able to let you know at the time.

Bye!

23 comments:

  1. I love honest posts like this! Go Kate! Hahaha hope the dark times have lifted though, and yes you are awesome! I always say, if you don't love yourself, who the hell will?

    Much love!

    XOXO Sade

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    1. They have indeed lifted! And yes, too true!

      (: Thanks so much fer reading

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  2. You don't need to apologize - it's your blog and you can do what you want!
    Love your hair soo much!

    Have the loveliest day,
    -Kati

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  3. I am still a huge fan of your blog, even if you don't post all the time when you do I really enjoying reading :)
    Your hair looks great! And I hope you're feeling better about things, as from what I can see you are awesome!! Haha

    Kirsti xx

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    1. Thanks! It always feels a bit awk when I update because it's so much less frequent than other bloggers haha but thanks for still reading, I appreciate it!
      xx

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  4. Now I really want you to marry me.

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    1. Sry, I'm swearing off relationships for the rest of my life hoho

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  5. Preach lady! I know I'm new here but I just have to say you really put down what people really need to hear and think about. We don't consider that we're one of them 'til we're faced with it after going through so much pain and wasted time but yeah, we've all been there I guess. I think your blog is amazing the way it is. Then again, maybe I'm bias to your story as I'm struggling to get motivated to really get my blog running more. I'm always amazed by those that still have time to blog on top of school AND work AND having decent pretty full social lives. I mean, come on, am I missing something? Maybe I should take up drinking massive amounts of coffee.
    Anyways, there's my wordy first comment as a new follower but I had to say my peace.
    Also you may have inspired me as a lady with long hair and a terrible phobia of the sheers to finally face fears and take the risk of get my split ends cut off.
    xx You're new admirer,
    Sinéad

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    1. I know, I don't get it! How do they find the time! There just aren't enough hours in the day. I already drink massive amounts of coffee and I can tell you it doesn't work haha.
      Your hair will feel a lot better overall with the ends cut off! Just make sure you don't accidentally remove 5 inches like I did haha.
      Thanks for following and good luck with your blog Sinead (:
      xx

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    2. I just realized I said your as you're, how embarrassing! Haha.

      Anyway, well there goes one method of coping! One day I'll understand!

      Yes I might go into shock if I did that, I have a semi-unhealthy addiction to long hair.

      Thank you (:

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  6. Just found your blog today and it´s soooooooo amazing!
    You look so beautiful and i like your style very much!

    Visit me ;)

    Have a nice weekend!


    Mrs.Dinosaur

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    1. Hi, I followed you! Love your blog (:
      xx

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  7. love this post <3 thank you for those words of wisdom lol. I hope you don't have to feel interesting and just post whenever you feel like it.

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    1. Hi, I do really haha, just always an awkwardly long gap in between posts haha! Thanks for reading xx

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  8. feel better Kate! I have totally no idea what's been going on in your life, but you're super awesome. Don't even worry about it <3

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    1. Thanks Mary <3 Are you in England right now?

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  9. Your hair looks lovely! And such an inspirational post! Think I will be reading your posts more often (as and when they arrive of course ;)) I write blog posts on this site http://www.maryjanelingerie.co.uk/talk/ about hair, beauty etc would be nice if you could have a look :)

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  10. I loved the title of your post and agree, authenticity is something I value in myself and others almost more than anything! Its tiresome to try to be something I'm not! And OMG, I LOVE that outfit with the tan coat and sparkly shorts! So cute! You have awesome style!!!

    www.domesticblisssquared.com

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  11. I just discovered your blog and it's lovely, and your hair is adorable too. I read a lot of blogs and have recently noticed I am finding themed posts and regular content a little contrived sometimes. It's nice when a blog is completely someones own, irregular or not. A post feels more special. Just my two cent.

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    1. Thanks so much! I agree with you. Honestly, sometimes when I'm writing my own blog posts I feel a little bit like 'ugh, this is so fake' because obviously I always have to appear at least basically positive / happy haha. When in real life I am whiny and cynical haha. Blogs are always better when they're partly personal imo! Thanks for your comment (:

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    2. Whiny & cynical is good too :)

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